Strange as it seems I feel like I have been gone from my life forever! Then again so much has happened in such a short time that will forever change our lives that the feeling is probably normal.
Just in case you missed the post It’s another healthy baby boy for Kate I had a baby three weeks ago. I am continually amazed at how fearfully and wonderfully made we are. With this pregnancy my body knew exactly what to do. My labor was fast and furious (only 3 hours) and the physical recovery went so well I tossed that darn peri bottle within the first week. The part I had forgotten about was those horrible post pregnancy hormones. You know, the ones that make you cry everyday for no reason and give you such bad cramps while nursing you could swear another child is trying to get out. I would like to look at the positive and remember how the cramping is what is getting my stomach back to what it once was but in the end I just hate the out of control feeling they give me…and then I go and cry about it.
I can now understand how overwhelming life with two kids can seem. I had my first day without help and I’m not afraid to admit I was petrified. I know other moms do this, but how? What happens if the baby has a bad night and I get no sleep? I can no longer nap when the baby naps during the day, the toddler would tear the house apart! What about when I am out in public and the toddler throws a tantrum while I am nursing and don’t have a free hand? Or worse, what if he starts running away and not listening to my pleas for him to come back while every single space on my body is holding, cradling or grasping the baby and all his ‘stuff’? It’s these fears that can overwhelm me if I focus too much on them. But I was determined to master this day! Thankfully the toddler and baby both cooperated. We took a trip to the park and no tantrums ensued. I was even able to get both kids to nap at the same time!
It’s little victories and taking it one day at a time at this stage in life. Not letting whatever fears you have scare you into inaction.
What fears did you have after having a baby?